february 6, 2021
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Hi Everyone,
We have made it through the week of tests and we're doing alright :)
Just one of the tests didn't end up happening because of a reaction I was having to a different dye that had been injected, but thankfully it wasn't one that was needed before the chemotherapy so it hasn't slowed anything down.
The port insertion procedure on Wednesday went smoothly. The doctor and nurses were all so kind.
Although Nathan had come with me to the hospital, they wouldn't let him come in because of covid restrictions. That was kind of a bummer, and because I had thought he would be there with me was an emotional adjustment (read: I was trying hard not to burst into tears while waiting in pre-op :)) While I was waiting, God brought to mind some verses that I had read that morning from Isaiah... similar verses that keep returning like a comforting refrain of truth: "For I will hold you by your right hand - I, the Lord your God. And I say to you, 'Don't be afraid. I am here to help you." I pictured Jesus just sitting right beside me, holding my hand, with me in every moment with gentleness, safety, and love.
Later that same day a friend shared that she had been praying for me that morning and felt God say clearly that he won't let go, that he's with me and isn't going anywhere. I love God's graciousness to repeat his love and reminders so we can fully let them sink into our hearts. He is so very good and close.
There was definitely a bit of recovery after the procedure, and I am so grateful for my parents who were here this week to help with everything. I am very well cared for and was able to rest and am on the mend.
Yesterday I was back to see the medical oncologist to finalize the plan and look at all the test results. Because of some of the results they did adjust the chemo plan slightly, but actually it means less rounds overall which seems like a definite positive. It's all a go to start chemo next week, sometime on Tuesday, and lots of pre and post details to attend to. So we're doing all the things we can to be ready - port will be healed up and ready to use, a wonderful friend cut my hair shorter last weekend so we're adjusting to less of that to come. The girls have also been helping me try on various headwear options - having fun where we can in the middle of the craziness :)
We're looking forward to a low-key weekend, finding much to be thankful for, and soaking in all the truths and promises that will hold us steady in the coming week.
Thank you for your continued prayers - they are so appreciated and also remind me constantly that we are not carrying any of this on our own. With each new day we know God is faithful, present and very much at work both in and around us. Praying you all know his rest and peace this weekend too xo
