may 18, 2021
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hey friends -
Just wanting to let you know that we're doing well and recovery is rolling along.
We are navigating a strange land of dressings & drains, and we've been both laughing at some of the ridiculous moments and also crying through some of the hard pieces. The pain has been manageable and I'm getting up and around more each day.
The kiddo crew will be home tomorrow and we're so looking forward to seeing them; we have had great space to be quiet and together in these first days of healing and rest and we're so thankful for wonderful grandparents.
Do you know how when you sleep at a hotel or somewhere other than home, and you wake up kind of disoriented and confused for a few minutes about where you are? I was thinking about how that's similar to how I feel in my own body every time I wake up; it doesn't feel quite right, it's disorienting, a bit unknown and unsettling for a few minutes and then I slowly remember and fully wake up to the new context I find myself in. It's not bad exactly, just different and takes adjusting to for sure.
Last night I was laying awake a bit and thinking about this weird state of learning again how to feel like myself in my own body and I felt God gently speaking that he is my home; my constant, sure place of safety. It's the thing I need reminding of often, and I love that Jesus always meets us where we are, reminding, encouraging, bringing truth to light in new ways that our hearts can hear and hold in a particular moment. He is such a good and loving God and I know he's holding us completely in these unusual days.
Here's a beautiful reminder promise that I read this morning from Psalm 91:
Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him.
Kind of says it all :) and I'm finding wonderful comfort and rest in the truth that is there.
Thanks for all your continued prayers and love.
I have a variety of follow-up appointments in the next couple of weeks. The hope is that all pathology reports will come back free of any further indication of cancer and that we are in full recovery mode from here on out. Everything indicates that should be the case and we're incredibly thankful and hopeful that we're nearing the end of this particular season.
Much love and thanks to you all
Hope you continue to enjoy the gorgeous weather and know how very loved you are xo
