march 19, 2021
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It's another birthday in our house today - first the youngest, and now the oldest one is being celebrated.
Our Amelia girl is 12! Crazy town!
I know these are not exactly health related updates :) but we are integrated people and all the feelings, thoughts, and truths are wrapped up together as part of who and how I am.
I have thought lots in the past weeks about all the things that Amelia has taught me... and every time the tears come quickly because I am so unbelievably proud of this girl and also so very thankful for her.
I could write a long piece about all the ways God has used her to show me his strength and care. If I am currently learning how to trust my own self to God's loving arms, it has been Amelia who taught me how to trust him with my most beloved ones.
She is the first baby - the one who taught me to be a mother.
She is the oldest child - the one who shows me what it means to lead with gentleness.
She is the peacemaker - the one who reminds Mommy to breathe when things get hairy.
She is the brave one - facing the challenges of a diagnosis that cannot be cured and all the things that go along with a body that isn't working quite as it should be.
We have learned together what it is to grieve a life-change you didn't see coming, and to pick yourself up again, adjust, learn, and carry on. And that to do it all over again.
We have learned together that even when our bodies are less than, we are not. Even when it is hard, we're okay.
We have learned that we're stronger together - encouraging each other when it's rotten and celebrating when it's good!
She really is amazing. And in the moments of fear and uncertainly over the last 3 years of learning to live with Type 1, God has reminded me often that he loves her as much as I do. He sees the fullness of her beauty, courage & strength; he sees her and knows her like no one else.
And so I pray for her as I pray for myself, that not one moment of struggle or difficulty will be wasted. That the challenges she has faced and will face in her life to come will move her ever closer to the heart of Jesus. That she too will be blessed as she realizes her need for God, and that she will know the fullness of his love, joy & abundance with each new day.
Beautiful girl, happy birthday xo
